Scratch that...

Alex is a little crack monkey. He's fully wide awake and raising hell now and doesn't want to go to bed. Must have gotten his second wind or something... He's been running around with a pop bottle and beating Vicki with it. Oh, and anything else he can find to beat her with as well. It must be Attack the Auntie night again. He likes that game... What a freak. Better her than me right now though, because I still have that sunburn and it would REALLY hurt, lol. I hope he goes to bed at some point soon... I'm about to pass the hell out!

Current Mood: tired

I hate changes really. I'm a planner and I like planning out things far in advance. When I can't do this I get all freaky like and start to get kinda spastic. I've been headed in that direction for a while. I kinda want to go hide under a rock really... It doesn't help either when you're a person who tends to second guess themselves every step of the way with most everything. I am in need of some serious counseling at this point I think... Anyhow, enough of my retarded ramblings...

Today's been a decent day for the most part. Kids have actually been pretty good for the most part. Went to a friends and helped her hang a bunch of curtains and a shelf. Still have one curtain to help her hang up and then she'll be done. She's one of those power tool illiterate women who just get all spastic when you hand her a drill. It was kinda funny, really. Had to make a last minute run to the store though, forgot we were almost out of milk again... as per usual. Oh, and my freaking tooth broke in half today, that was nice. I was eating a bowl of cereal and the damn thing just cracked right in half. It wasn't even really crunchy cereal either. Kinda half soggy frosted flakes. WTH... Going to the dentist tomorrow afternoon. This should prove interesting. I wonder if they'll just pull the rest of the tooth out or still want to do a repeat root canal on the damn thing. All I know is it hurts my poor gums. Anyhow, yeah, that's about it for today... weeeeee. I'm actually pretty damn tired and can't wait to go to bed tonight. I think Alex is starting to feel the same way, as he had a short nap...

Current Mood: sleepy

Yea

Yea for $! I had my yard sale today and yesterday and made $135. Of course, I'm not sure that makes up for the fact that I now look like a giant freaking lobster, but we needed the $. Now I can go get the boys some summer clothes :) And maybe myself some too while I'm at it. I could use some as well. I have only one pair of shorts and I hate them... anyhow it was a couple good days of sales... I'm feeling completely drained from the sun.. Hoping I didn't manage to get heat stroke. I tell ya though...nothing better than taking an ice cold shower when it's about 85 in the house and you're sunburnt like crazy. boy does that ever feel great! Well, off to rest for a little bit before heading off to my 3rd bbq in as many days... Too friggin hot to cook inside!

Current Mood: accomplished

Brief Update...

Well, we named our kitty Bailey. He's cute as a button. Found a home for the other two with a friend of mine. Her kids have been bugging her about getting kitties since they came to my house and saw them :D

My friend Lacy sent me an invite to this neat message board site called Care2.com It's really fun. I've been preoccupied with playing around on there all day.

I have yet to really get packing... Kinda waiting for Steve to leave to do that, as that will be far easier on me. He'll be gone to Vegas for a couple weeks....

The boys get out of school June 17th, having Ian's birthday party on the 18th. We'll be moving right after that I think.... I guess thats about it for now!

Star Wars...

So, Steve's squadron reserved a screen at the theater in Burlington for 1:15 am last night. So off on a 40 minute drive each way (actually, 30 min there, no traffic at all, lol) to watch the last of the movies.. It was pretty good, and even though I got only 2 hours of sleep total last night, it was worth it. Just as we laid down to go to sleep (10 min after arriving home just as the sun was rising) Alex decided to get up. Of course. So back up I got and haven't gotten any sleep since. I'm a bit of a zombie today. But no real complaints. Haven't told the kids we went to see it without them because they'll have a huge freaking fit. So I get to go see it again with them. I'll wait about a week or two before taking them because I want the crowd of people to die down a bit first... I do recommend going to see it though.

Kitty Names...

So I'm trying to figure out what to name my kitten... He's an orange tabby. I have 2 names I like right now... Namir (means swift cat) or Bailey (my grandma's maiden name). So far he's an adventurous kitty, already almost escaped the box a few times, crawls all over the place and is the smallest of the 3 remaining kittens (the two runts died). The other two are named Gimpy (male orange tabby who obviously has birth defects) and Milo (grey/black tabby female who is cute as a button). So, it's a real toss up for me which name to pick for him.... Any suggestions besides those would also be good. HELP! lol...

Current Mood: calm

StReSs...

So, stress might as well be my middle name. Between Steve's constant bi-polar-ish mood swings on a daily basis and the kids all being sick yet again, I'm ready to run away. Nothing new to that really, as it's been my life for years. It's just getting down to the wire now, moving in a month. Haven't packed anything, haven't gotten my garage sale done, and haven't done shit basically. I've moved 2 boxes of stuff, and that's it. Wooo. Going to help a friend clean out her garage so that I can store our stuff there I think. Found out Steve is going to stay in the house until the divorce is final, so maybe that's just less stuff to move for now. Hoping he won't destroy anything (more than it already is that is, lol). If he does, I guess that just means less for me to move and that I need to get new stuff. He's really upset about all of this, saying I'm taking his kids away from him. Well, if you'd learned to treat your family better, they wouldn't have to go away. My best friend has finally spoken to me again, for the first time in months. She quit speaking to me and cut me out of her life because she was too stressed out, mad and worried about me. Being pregnant with high blood pressure, she opted to reduce her stress by cutting me out. I would have done the same thing. But at least we've spoken and I've cleared the air for her on some things and she and I are on our way to being back the way we were before. Anyhow, need to eat and go to the store for TP among other things, so I guess I should go.

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: mozart

at least...

the day has gotten better. I made a yummy breakfast of scrambled eggs and cinnamon muffin melts. The kids were a little better as the day went on. Then I made a yummy dinner of bbq pork tenderloin, potatoes au gratin and corn. Kind of an odd combo, but Skye picked the sides, lol. Alex left me with a totally clean high chair tray. Seriously, you'd think he'd licked it clean or something. No mess on him either! Guess he liked tonights dinner! Now the little oinker is eating peanut butter ritz bits sandwiches. I swear he never stops eating!

Oh, and Steve apologized this afternoon when he got up for this morning. I didn't accept the apology. I just said nothing as he tried hugging me and saying sorry. There's just no excuse for it really. I don't do that kind of shit to him. WTF. Even when mad at him, I still didn't do that kind of shit. anyhow, going off again. There's one thing that would make my day better, but that's not going to happen, so I won't even say anything about it really.... Off I go...

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: some classical that Vicki has on

Happy

Mothers day to any and all of the mom's out there. I hope your day is going well, and better than mine.

I woke up to screaming baby and said "happy fucking mothers day" and headed for the bathroom before going to get said screaming child. So I was called a stupid bitch and he got up to go get Alex grumbling about how he took me out to dinner last night for mothers day and I couldn't even be happy about that. Okay, because I was tired and all he did the entire time was try to make me feel like shit. Because that's what everyone wants for mothers day, right? That's a perfect mothers day dinner... Damn, I'm such an ungrateful bitch. Add that to the list of reasons I'm leaving.... Not once in 6 years have I had a mothers day where I wasn't the one up with the kids, doing all the housework, cooking the meals and doing everything. Same with my birthday... and every other day for that matter.... I've had to practically be on my death bed for him to get up with the kids and do anything around here that didn't have to do with himself.

Honestly, is it too much to ask of a relationship to be brought breakfast in bed out of the blue or on a special day like mothers day or a birthday? Or come home to find the kids at a sitters and a candle lit dinner? Or how about going out as a family at a time when the kids are happy and energetic, not crabby and nagging and been up 1/2 the day bored waiting to go to do something. Wait... that shit only happens in movies....I forgot. Not in real life.... Or at least not for me... I can't count the number of times I've done that shit for him...

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: QOTSA ~ Little Sister

blah blah blah

So, a million and one things have happened in the past couple weeks. Way too much to even really go into any sort of detail about right now. It's offical after a little domestic dispute which resulted in Stevis being hauled off in cuffs and a 48 hour mpo being issued. Things are going okay now, and we're civil and all that. I'm not sure what his next step is. He might be moving out to the barracks, or not. Either way, the kids and I are moving back to Lynnwood in June. We'll be staying with my friend Katy and her family (they have 2 spare bedrooms) until we can get a place of our own. Until then it's start packing and have a garage sale. Fun. Fun. Maybe I can get enough $ from the garage sale to pay a deposit. I'll be selling off a lot of baby stuff Alex has outgrown.

On the happy side of things, Bella had her kittens. She gave birth on Sunday, to 5 kittens, 1 black, 1 tan, 2 orange and a gray/black tabby. She promptly killed one of the runts (black) and tried to kill the other runt (tan) but we caught her smothering the poor thing on several different occasions and finally took it to the vets office and surrendered it in hopes they would be able to nurse it to health (it was malnourished, as it was too small to feed). We'll be calling on Monday to check on how it's doing. The remaining 3 kittens are doing fine and feeding well. Two we've named, the tabby is Milo and the larger orange one is Gimpy because it looks like it has a bum leg. The other orange one we have yet to come up with a name for. I'm hoping to find homes for them soon, as they will be old enough when it's time for us to move.

Anyhow, ho hum... Got another party today. Someone said they'd order a case of the Chai Tea... We'll see. I'm hoping she does, because that is $200 right there. I could really really use a good party!

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: The Streets ~ Stay Positive