Stressed and Depressed...

Stressed and Depressed...
Current mood: depressed

I'm so stressed right now! I'm $270 short of my quarterly minimum for Tastefully Simple, basically, one party away from deactivating. The one party I had scheduled, rescheduled and can't do it until April, which is too late for me. I don't know what to do, because I love doing it and I've sunk a lot of money into it over the years. Plus I love the discount. I just can't for some reason (maybe cuz I'm a shitty sales person, I don't know) get bookings or get my business off to a real start. I just don't understand what the hell my problem is. Maybe it's that most the people I know are broke as I am, I dunno... It's killing me though. If I had the $ I'd just buy the product myself, but I don't since I had the whole van repo issue last month. It totally killed me. That money was supposed to go to rent and to the kids and my business, and it's gone. I'm so sunk right now. I'm depressed as hell over everything. And I've still not heard back from the dr's about Skye's results from his MRI and that's killing me too. I'm supposed to go on a vacation to Seaside OR with my dad and his girlfriend this weekend (with the kids and my sis) but I'm starting to think I should skip it and try to have an open house or something to drum up some orders. I'm just flipping out here. I'm close to snapping under all the pressure I'm feeling and it sucks ass. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide :(