So I finally made the decision to get my head shrunk. Wish me luck. First appt is tomorrow... We'll see how it goes.... I've been told it can be quite helpful as long as I go into it with an open mind and don't be surprised if I wind up back on meds again. Blech, more meds but I'm sure she won't do that to me immediately. There's a lot of crap that I've gone through that most people don't know about. Some know some of it because they know about my mother and her insanity. I'm thinking this is mostly preventative measures so that I don't wind up absolutely bonkers like her. Only time will tell on that, but so far so good. I'm thinking about starting at the beginning of my life and journaling about every significant memory as far back as I can remember. Hmmm maybe I'll ask the shrink about that idea. Maybe she'll read it, ha ha ha... Anyhow sure I'm boring anyone reading this... Sorry... Just felt like blabbering for the hell of it.... I'm tired, but not quite tired enough to go to bed yet. That and I've been plagued by very strange dreams again lately and it makes it really hard to get any good sleep. Last night there were funky pinkish colored worms living in the walls eating the house. And my friend Cristi was in the dream as well, but I don't remember what happened. At this point all I really remember is the worms and her and her house. Maybe they were eating her house, I can't remember....

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