Well...

I chopped off my hair again on Thursday... It's just up past my shoulders. Sooooo much better. Got some real funny looks from Alex when I first came home though, lol. I'm happy with it, except people are now thinking that I'm a brunette, not a redhead, when they see photo's of me. Has my hair really gotten THAT dark? Crap! I guess I'll have to color it now. Well, at least the people who count know I'm a real and natural redhead!

I'm thinking today is going to be a good day. So far it is. I'm not hacking up my lungs nearly as bad as I was over the weekend. Though last night sucked. Didn't sleep again. Going to try and walk today, and if I can't find a spot somewhere in the house to put my elliptical so I can hop on that. that's if I can get it out of the garage! Speaking of the garage.. Maybe I'll go out there today and start getting ready for a garage sale. Thinking I might do that part of next weekend. I have a LOT of stuff we can sell. Most of it baby stuff, and just general stuff, but all stuff that can go. I can put the $ towards stuff we'll be needing for the kids. Now that Alex's dresser is in shambles, he'll probably need a new one. Unless I can somehow fix it so that it's sturdy and still have it not look like ass. Damn, I just gave myself like 15 projects again...

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Jet - Look What You Have Done

Oh happy day to everyone...

I have had a really good day. Despite the fact that my youngest son is a crackhead and got up at 5:30 in the morning. But other than that, the day has gone better than most in recent history. The only thing that would make this day better is to be able to spend the rest of it with the one I love. But, nothing is ever perfect, so unfortunately that's not going to happen. I'll just be satisified talking to him tonight I guess....

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Skinny Puppy - Worlock

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Hmmmmm

Well, I got an endmail today, even though I don't listen to that station much any more, I still get them. This one was announcing End Fest for this year. It's moved up to the beginning of June (used to be in August every year). I might actually have to go to this one. Some really cool bands will be playing like Social Distortion, Queens of the Stone Age and Kasabian. I already talked to my friend Rebecca and she and I are more than likely going to go... Probably going to take my sister with as well. Going to see if I can arrange for overnight care for the boys and camp out down south somewhere for the night, rather than driving all the way back to the island that night. Too far a drive I think. Fun :D I haven't been to a show in 3 years!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Hoobastank - Crawling in the dark

ahhhh sweet rain...

so why do I always get so blue when it starts raining again? I'm so down today, and don't really know why. I mean, other than missing Kelly. But that's nothing new really. I miss him every day. So I've got candles lit, been trying to play upbeat music and not be bored, lonely and depressed. Now that I think about it, I'm probably missing my sister too. I'm so used to her being here on a daily basis, so I have had someone to talk to all the time. Now she's not here. Damn it. lol...

Going to take Alex to go get his hair fixed finally. Been so busy and the hours of the stupid barber arent all that great. It gets packed in there during mid day hours. They should be open now, or open at 10, so I'll be leaving as soon as I get a coat on the munchkin and the van's warmed up. It's freaking cold out there again. Wish the weather would make up it's mind already. Anyhow, guess I should get going...

Current Mood: depressed

It's Frustrating...

when your current living conditions seem to deteriorate more on a daily basis. I'm to the point where I can't leave by myself any longer. I get pestered with a zillion phone calls on my cell, then if I don't answer, just as many nasty messages. WTF. Add that to the list of many things that piss me off about him. It's okay for him to go out and do whatever with whomever, but the second I try to get some time to myself away from the house, god forbid. I guess that's why I make 50 grocery trips a week. Apparently that's a *safe* activity. fuck.

Current Mood: aggravated

Welllll

I did the party, there were a whoppin 3 guests and no outside orders. Didn't even hit $100 in sales. Totally sucks. Oh well. She closed today, so between my 3 parties I've made like $100 this month, whooo. hooo. Oh well. One of these will turn out right, right? argh!

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Greenday - American Idiot

Wish Me Luck!

Well, I'm going to do my 3rd party for the month today. The one I was supposed to do last night didn't happen, and the first two bombed. So I figure this one has got to be a good one, right? I'm so nervous for this one, because I've had such bad luck in the last two. I need the money so bad because now I'm going to start saving for at least one camping trip and a couple day trips with the kids this summer. There's so much I want to do with them now that they are old enough (at least Ian and Skye are) to remember doing fun things as kids. I know I went on a ton of camping trips and day trips as a kid and remember so many of them. So I have a loooooong list of things I want to do with them now. Plus I also need to save money for moving. Anyhow, I have to hop in the shower and then run to the store before I have to load up the van for the party. I'll post again later to let ya know how it went (and tell you about my *wonderful* night last night with the baby). Hasta La Pasta!

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Jet - Cold Hard Bitch

OMFG

For anyone who has me on messenger, you've seen my "name" for the day... "People who aren't beauticians shouldn't cut hair". So the story behind this is... I get up this morning to find that my beautiful baby boy now looks like an ugly girl with a really bad haircut. Steve, in the middle of the night, took a pair of scissors and a handful of Alex's beautiful blonde locks in the front and just went Snip! He looks absolutely horrid now, poor kid! Guess that shoots the shit out of my "retro" photo shoot I was going to do to. He looked like flashback from the 70's baby with his hair before and a friend had some 70's style baby flare jeans and a tie dye t-shirt we were going to dress him up in and take pics of. Now that's not going to happen since the hair will all have to be cut in order to recover from daddy's mid-night hack job. Add that to my list of ARGH for the day!

Why

is it that EVERY time my sister leaves here from staying with us for any extended period of time, the night she leaves, the kids puke? Seriously, every time! This time, it was Alex and Skye both. Both woke up, sat up and puked in their beds then freaked out about it. Thank god Steve came home right away so I had some help. And he stayed up with Alex so I could get some sleep. Now both are sleeping soundly. Skye woke up feeling much better than he had last night...

The one thing I'm not looking forward to (in terms of the kids) is Steve leaving for a det down in El Centro (near the mexican border in Cali) & dealing with the boys and finding a sitter for the 16th. I have a party that night and that's the day he leaves. Of course. At least my party for the 15th rescheduled. I suppose everything will work out, it always does!

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Social Distortion - Story of My Life

Almost Forgot..

I had a really screwy dream/nightmare this afternoon. I had passed out cold for a few hours thinking I was just going to take a quick power nap while my sis was in the shower... Woke up scratching my head in wonder going WTF was that about... In my dream/nightmare I was being chased by several large penises. As in rather than people chasing me, they were people sized penises. Would LOVE to find out what that one means, because it's got me confused as hell! Hopefully tonight I can have some sort of normal person dreams or something... Cuz I surely don't want to dream that again! Scared the hell out of me!

:(

:( I took my sister home today. She's been here since the morning of Thanksgiving Day. Yeah, that's an extended stay, lol. But she has been a huge help with the kids and her help was greatly appreciated and will be equally missed, lol. So now, we're home, the kids are all sad that Vicki or "tea" as Alex calls her is gone. Wonder how long it will take Alex to figure out she's not here and quit wandering around aimlessly looking for her wimpering... This is not going to be any fun! Got an extention for our walk through baby gate today so we can move it from just the laundry room door to the wall outside the main bathroom. That way Skye won't have to climb over the other gate anymore and knock it over. The extention only cost like $16 which isn't too bad. Especially since the gates themselves go for like $50 each normally! I got lucky and found one on clearance at target for like $30. My friend got even luckier and found 3 for $15 at a garage sale, bitch, lol. Anyhow, in for a long night I think, because all the kids are sick again, and I am as well. Can't we EVER be well?? DAMN IT! Someday I'm sure... Current Mood: tired Current Music: Modest Mouse - Float On

Ho Hum..

So, I did two parties over the weekend. Both flopped. No one really showed up at either one. The one on Sunday I kind of expected people to be late, because of daylight savings time. The hosts are both going to bug people to order since they didn't come to the parties though. At least they're trying!

I have to get a new washer and dryer. Our washer has this funky smell that we can't seem to get rid of, probably something that floated up over the basket and is moldy or something. And the dryer, well, thank my stupid cat for that. She pissed inside it 3 times now and I just can't get the smell out of it. It's all stained inside too because of it. So new appliances it is. The washer also I think has been putting holes in our clothes. I think the agitator is catching the clothes and putting the holes in them. So I'll be really looking at the new one we get before we purchase to make sure it isn't made the same way as the one we have... Weeeee more money we don't really have. Damn it. Thank god for home layaway at the navy exchange!

Current Mood: calm

WOW!

This TOTALLY makes me feel better about my kids and my bad days....

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=5569872897

So Sick...

of everything related to Terri Schaivo. She's dead, get over it.

On to other stuff to chat about...

I'm very excited about work. Today is the first day of the new selling season and I'm getting prepped for the 6 parties I have booked this month. My first one is tomorrow. I love doing the parties, they're a lot of fun and it gets me out of the house (and some extra cash too, lol). I'm hoping to get my business really going this year so that I can really start saving some money and not have to go out and get another job to support the kids and I.

Steve and I are trying to come up with a plan that won't leave anyone out in the cold financially. I'm leaving most of that up to him, as he's the one paying child support. Somehow the lawyer he went to (which wtf, because we were supposed to be doing this w/o lawyers) decided that I *should* be making about $1800/month with no education beyond high school and not having worked in 4 years when I get a job. Yea, freaking right. Like that's going to happen... Maybe if I did 20 parties a month I could make that kind of money with TS, unless I was doing some really good sized parties. Right now my avg. party is $250 and that only grosses about $62.50 for me... weeee. at 20 parties that'd be like $1200/month.... So unless I start getting a lot of internet orders in and a lot of big parties, things are looking like I'll have to get a second job. I'm sure I could go flip burgers somewhere or something... blech! Maybe I'll get more parties when I move to the mainland.... More people there...

Current Mood: contemplative